Tag: world mental health day

• The man

  I’m a man’s man,
  I don’t ask for no help
  I go through hell alone and have a story to tell!
  Down at the bar with my bros every blue moon
  Cos I don’t see the need, in seeming to need to see them too soon
  They don’t need to see behind the scenes and lose the mystique
  Like a couple hours earlier when I was crying alone in my bedroom
  
  That shit is too bleak,
  I’d rather hide than seek a shoulder to cry on
  I’m meant to be the strong one
  The one they rely on
  The joker, the charmer, the rational thinker
  Part-time stoic and full-time drinker
  Taking shot after shot but I don’t tend to the wounds
  I only intend to consume
  Letting nothing spill out
  Drowning out the sorrow
  Taking the pain home with interest tomorrow
  To the same room where I sat and I cried
  I’ll sit again and again I’ll ask why:
  
  Why, why do I feel so disconnected?
  Why do I feel so empty and rejected?
  Why do I feel lonely when I’m rarely alone?
  Why do I feel like a stranger when I sit on my own?
  The guy from the bar now sat in my home,
  He isn’t me
  He’s a bunch of pleasantries and open ended questions
  Hoping to blend into the scene without making a scene,
  He’s seen by all but completely unseen
  Shocked by it all, like some unforeseen circumstance
  Even though every day, it’s the same old song and dance
  
  But still, I’m a mans man
  I don’t ask for no help
  Better to burn alone than be dragged from this hell
  Can’t risk the reveal by trusting another
  By sharing how I feel with a man I call brother
  Imagine if he knew all the darkness and pain
  Would he meet my eye again or think I’m insane?
  I’d rather reject myself and play another role
  Instead of revealing the whole,
  Revealing my soul,
  Instead of pleading ‘Help me,
  Please get me out of this hole!’
  
  The man.

  Oct 10, 2024

  depression, free form, loneliness, manhood, masculinity, mens health, Mental health, poetry, world mental health day

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